Dear friends, thanx for everyone who supported me so far, who offered advice, or just said hello to me. May God forgive those who made fun of my problem. I hope they never experience something like i do.
Next, i will briefly describe my binge eating episode of today, i guess it makes it easier for me to share with those who care. You can also get some understanding of how the bulimia works with me. I know this should not be a topic of conversation at all, but for the purpose of the situation i find myself in, forgive me, and let it be.

• Morning: woke up at 8 am, planned to have breakfast, but couldnt because my stomach was full and i felt sick from last night's binge eating. Tired and sleepy coz didnt sleep well coz of my stomach.
• At work in my office, feeling still sick, but have to work and not show to others how bad i feel. Depressed and Tired.
• 12 mid day: snack over a yogurt with some oats.
• 2:00 pm binge eating ideas start to bombard my mind, hungry, desperately hungry.
• 3:00 left work early with money heading to Restaurant where ordered: Bread with oil and butter,  Fried Mozzarella Cheese sticks with dip, Pasta with cream and cheese sauce, Pizza with extra cheese.
• 4:00pm left restaurant
• 4:05pm entered closes grocery shop to buy ice cream and 3 snickers bars. Ate on the way home.
• 4:30pm  entered grocery shop close to home, bought big family size icecream 650 gram, with one pack of musely with nuts and chocolate chips 500 grams. came home ate all that
• 5:30pm  crying , depressed sad, lonely, angry, ashamed, tired, screaming out loud, pain. 
• 6:00 pm sleeping pill went to bed
• 8:00 pm woke up feeling heavy tired and depressed, can not cry anymore. checked my email, and internet
• 8:30 thirsty from all the food i had before, ,,can not drink as there is no room in my stomach for water.
• 10:00 sleeping pill
• 11:30 will go to sleep hoping tomorrow will be better.

3 snickers bars already 1200 calorie .... an adult physical worker needs 2000 a day.... 

You have totally uncontrollable eating habits. Sleeping pills?? No way!

You know it's mental, right? So instead of whining,  make up your mind, and do sport every day, will make you tired, you will sleep as a bear. 

musely = Muesli or Müsli ... just for the record

Forget what I said about hot water and plenty of rest. Drink pu'er, a natural diuretic. There's no way that 拉肚子 could further aggravate the negative physiological side-effects of a psychological disorder like bulimia! No ma'am!

If OP is skeptical of traditional Chinese medicine, consider fecal bacteriotherapy for replenishing the balance of benevolent gut flora. In short: trade poops!

Delicious copypasta you must eat:

 > The remedy was made by combining freshly excreted stool from a healthy donor with a pint of lightly salted water. After stirring and straining, the concoction was delivered through a nasal tube that snaked down to the first section of the small intestine, bypassing any opportunity for patients to taste or smell the solution. (Transplants can also be introduced rectally with an enema or colonoscope.)

Seriously though, @OP, if you buy low quality pu'er it might make matters worse and could seriously and permanently harm your health.

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Darwin was right... This is Natural selection. The better survives, the broken one fail. If she would spend the same time on exercise what she spends on Internet, she would be okay. But lazy, neurotic ... and no WILL of changing! Simply should decide to eat good food, not all those artificial junks. If you have no will power to stop it, then YOU DESERVE IT! And get out and run, run, NO NEED sleeping pills! Everybody gets what they deserve. Nobody can help you girl, ONLY YOURSELF! Don't talk about, JUST DO SOMETHING!

You know how many talented and intelligent people are starving in the world...  And the world is already over populated. And some eating this much and crying. I have no sympathy, or empathy sorry. 

@william:  you can give the best advises, she will not follow it. Simply these people have no will power. She must know herself that what she eats is bad, but she does not change her habits. She is looking for support, not help;

Please people do me a favor and use proper English spelling and grammar. It is so difficult to read through all this stuff. I am still trying to decipher what Robin was trying to say...