Dear friends, thanx for everyone who supported me so far, who offered advice, or just said hello to me. May God forgive those who made fun of my problem. I hope they never experience something like i do.
Next, i will briefly describe my binge eating episode of today, i guess it makes it easier for me to share with those who care. You can also get some understanding of how the bulimia works with me. I know this should not be a topic of conversation at all, but for the purpose of the situation i find myself in, forgive me, and let it be.
Next, i will briefly describe my binge eating episode of today, i guess it makes it easier for me to share with those who care. You can also get some understanding of how the bulimia works with me. I know this should not be a topic of conversation at all, but for the purpose of the situation i find myself in, forgive me, and let it be.
- Morning: woke up at 8 am, planned to have breakfast, but couldnt because my stomach was full and i felt sick from last night's binge eating. Tired and sleepy coz didnt sleep well coz of my stomach.
- At work in my office, feeling still sick, but have to work and not show to others how bad i feel. Depressed and Tired.
- 12 mid day: snack over a yogurt with some oats.
- 2:00 pm binge eating ideas start to bombard my mind, hungry, desperately hungry.
- 3:00 left work early with money heading to Restaurant where ordered: Bread with oil and butter, Fried Mozzarella Cheese sticks with dip, Pasta with cream and cheese sauce, Pizza with extra cheese.
- 4:00pm left restaurant
- 4:05pm entered closes grocery shop to buy ice cream and 3 snickers bars. Ate on the way home.
- 4:30pm entered grocery shop close to home, bought big family size icecream 650 gram, with one pack of musely with nuts and chocolate chips 500 grams. came home ate all that
- 5:30pm crying , depressed sad, lonely, angry, ashamed, tired, screaming out loud, pain.
- 6:00 pm sleeping pill went to bed
- 8:00 pm woke up feeling heavy tired and depressed, can not cry anymore. checked my email, and internet
- 8:30 thirsty from all the food i had before, ,,can not drink as there is no room in my stomach for water.
- 10:00 sleeping pill
- 11:30 will go to sleep hoping tomorrow will be better.