My most recent dream:
I was back at some college campus, trying to learn the layout of the school and whatnot. Apparently I shared a dorm room with 2 women, one of them was a white girl that I was apparently dating. I actually remember talking to her and she wanted to help me trim my fingernails or something and as we were cuddling and whispering sweet nothings to each other (while the other roommate watched), I distinctly remember telling her "You know, normally I only date Asian girls." And she replied "well, you're not now, are you?"
That part really didn't bother me. The disturbing thing is that I was supposed to take like I guess a calculus exam or something but I didn't know what day and I never went to class more than once. I was freaking out hard about it trying to just find the classroom and even if I found it, it wouldn't have done me any good because I didn't go to class nor study any of the materials.
For me, this is one of the worst and most sinking kind of feelings. I absolutely hate not being prepared for an exam. And the worst part of this type of dream is that it feels so real even after waking up. I feel like the responsibility was real and my complete disregard for it was also real and wake up thinking "god, what the hell is wrong with me? What am I gonna do?" for a good few seconds before realizing it was a dream.
Well, and I hate showing up to class in underwear but fortunately I haven't been dreaming about that since high school.
I guess this is just some repressed anxiety about starting grad school. And the white girl part... maybe repressed desire for white girls that I've been ignoring all my life in favor of dating only Chinese girl? Or something like that?